Apathy - what a perfect name for an essay writing track!
I'm sure like me you've never felt any lack of enthusiasm or lack of concern for your project - no - never - honest...
Ok - so maybe that's a small white lie - if not a huge great whopping one! I'm guessing that like me - you go through different emotional states when it comes to how you feel about your work. I'm often reminded of the Elizabeth Gilbert Ted talk where she riffs on the fear of being a writer - projecting an end result of "...dying on a scrap heap of broken dreams with your mouth filled with the bitter ash of failure?"
And it doesn't matter if I'm thinking about a specific piece of work or a huge project - there are times when I just don't fucking have it. Whether I've been pushing too hard and am burned out - or I didn't get enough sleep and my brain makes molasses look slick or - shit - I don't know - had an argument with a loved one - could be anything but the result is still the same - I look at my work - I think it's shit and I don't want to work on it.
At times like this I like to fight fire with fire. Suffering from Apathy? - Try a little Apathy! This track from 21 year old Norwegian composer Andreas Wiig Wennesland is the perfect fuel. Soft and welcoming to start with - no pressure here - just a gentle beckoning to maybe start looking at things. Energy comes and goes and for the first few minutes you're carried along on a simple theme that is pleasant enough but not terribly pressing until the intensity starts to kick in and by the third minute damn if you haven't got yourself a bit of energy going!
As ever - I have this on repeat as I'm writing and that whole third quarter just fills me up and gets me going and whoah look - I wrote all of this and I really didn't feel like it when I started!
This track also appears on the Music to A Strange Night playlist
You can learn more about Abist here:
About the Curator: Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
Although I've always played, I haven't always been a musician. Most of my twenties were spent working with people, buying and selling and learning how the world works. It was in my thirties that I came to America and focused on music and began to develop music2work2.