Christmas parties - Ugh! Really - you mean that’s part of my job description now? That I have to go outside of work hours - off the clock - and socialize with people I can barely relate to when you’re actually paying me?!
And to be honest - it’s not just Christmas parties - it’s any kind of party at this time of year - ‘cos there sure seem to be a lot of them. It’s as if the winter solstice (in the northern hemisphere anyway) infects the population with the desire to interact - to be happy and touch and dance and do all those things that require a soul - or at least - a soul that’s prepared to show up.
Do you know what it’s like to be in a room packed full of people and to feel entirely alone - to sit or stand there, drink in one hand, party face in the other and to feel completely separate from the human race. To watch dispassionately as every joyful human interaction seems to pour gasoline on the flames of your isolation.
Yeah. I was never really one for parties - at least - most of the time. There were - and still are - times when I’m on form - where I’m one of the people on the other side - the dancer, the laugher, the all night partier and king of good times - but you can’t rely on him to show up - and it’s always too late by the time you realize he isn’t coming.
Zane knows what I’m talking about - I just wrote that with this track on repeat - but you should read what he had to say about where the track came from - ‘cos it’s brilliant -
You can learn more about Zane here:
About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
After my dad died I was very sad - I couldn't play for a while and when I did, the music that came out reflected my grieving state. I wrote an album of solo piano music called Music to Grieve to - from which the idea of the Music to community originated.
If you'd like to know more you should read Nicole's fabulous article on why listening to sad music can make you feel better.