Life is odd.
You know what I mean? Life is just bloody strange at times - and I’m not talking about what happens to you as you go through it - I’m talking about what you do to yourself - particularly when you’re grieving.
I’m in love with this track from Manon because it’s a beautiful depiction of the unique insanity that is human relationships. The idea that you have to leave the one you love in order to truly find them - or indeed - find yourself - is mental. What kind of fucked up world do we live in where we can’t just be happy with what we have.
And yet - it’s so bloody true. Who amongst you hasn’t fallen out of love - particularly when you’re younger - initially blaming your partner only to find out that in fact yes - it was’t them - it was you. The intoxication of young love allows you to build your house on sand but weak foundations don’t last when the glow wears off.
And so you split - to discover who and what you are - trusting in the universe that you’ll find your way back together - but the chances are slim, the journey is long and the elements cruel - they treat you differently at different times and if, by some unreasonable chance you do meet again - it’s likely that you won’t recognize each other.
Music to grieve to indeed…
You can learn more about Manon here:
About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
After my dad died I was very sad - I couldn't play for a while and when I did, the music that came out reflected my grieving state. I wrote an album of solo piano music called Music to Grieve to - from which the idea of the Music to community originated.
If you'd like to know more you should read Nicole's fabulous article on why listening to sad music can make you feel better.
25 September 2021
Why write a song reflecting on the suicide of a beloved friend? Why send it out into the world? What purpose does that serve? Ever since Gerhardt reached out and sent me this beautiful track, I’ve been reflecting on those questions – and while I don’t have an answer, I have an idea of one…
13 April 2021
I was feeling sad – and I know why, but damn it’s so hard at times.
I’ve sat and watched as circumstance came in and deconstructed my defences one by one – constant pain leading to lack of sleep to lack of writing to lack of self care to lack of confidence to lack of hope to – STOP!
31 March 2021
There’s this idea in life that just because you know a thing it makes it easier to deal with.
Like sitting down with a therapist, driving through your history until you find the behavior that causes you, many years later, to run away from connection or drink too much or insist on cleaning everything 3 times.