Sometimes it's all just so exhausting - you know?
Everyone has their own "thing" to deal with - the thing that drains you of energy and intent - the thing that has you spiraling down into bad behavior and ever increasing distance from normal. And what do you do when you're here? When you're self sabotaging and listening to the wrong voices?
I adore this track.
Originally featured by Ashlee on her Music to Go To The Moon playlist - it's perfect for those of us who need help. The opening chords - the calm tempo - the stunning vocal and the so so insightful lyric that anyone struggling on their own will recognize.
When you're down it's practically impossible to "hear" someone when they tell you to get up and get out of it - no-one understands what we're going through - our unique and particular circumstances - how dare they!
And yet - we know that ultimately - we're going to have to get right - either on our own, or through friends or with professional help. We're eventually going to have to start lifting our head up, get out of bed and face the world. And while that's a scary proposition - the promise of the song is that it's going to be alright.
When I play this track - I can almost believe it...
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About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
After my dad died I was very sad - I couldn't play for a while and when I did, the music that came out reflected my grieving state. I wrote an album of solo piano music called Music to Grieve to - from which the idea of the Music to community originated.
If you'd like to know more you should read Nicole's fabulous article on why listening to sad music can make you feel better.
25 September 2021
Why write a song reflecting on the suicide of a beloved friend? Why send it out into the world? What purpose does that serve? Ever since Gerhardt reached out and sent me this beautiful track, I’ve been reflecting on those questions – and while I don’t have an answer, I have an idea of one…
13 April 2021
I was feeling sad – and I know why, but damn it’s so hard at times.
I’ve sat and watched as circumstance came in and deconstructed my defences one by one – constant pain leading to lack of sleep to lack of writing to lack of self care to lack of confidence to lack of hope to – STOP!
31 March 2021
There’s this idea in life that just because you know a thing it makes it easier to deal with.
Like sitting down with a therapist, driving through your history until you find the behavior that causes you, many years later, to run away from connection or drink too much or insist on cleaning everything 3 times.