I don’t know what it is at the moment but I’m in total “Anthem” mode - you know - the kinda tracks that you lose yourself in and sing along to at the top of your voice without giving a damn who hears you. There’s something incredibly cathartic to this behavior and it’s exactly why we are building the list.
Loss is nuts!
The experience of no longer having something that you treasured and didn’t want to give up.
It doesn’t matter how it manifests - whether it’s a relationship or a death or an illness or a forced separation - the resultant grief is pretty universal and is the price we all pay for daring to invest ourselves in the first place.
Dealing with grief is at the heart of this playlist - sometimes you just want to curl up in a ball and cry, sometimes you want to self medicate until you don’t feel anything, but most of the time you actually have to get on with your life. This means getting up, getting dressed, going to work, interacting with people and all when those behaviors are the last things you want to do.
Enter Ms. Morgan St. Jean.
While this track is dealing with heartbreak it could be applied to any kind of loss - as Morgan says:
I couldn’t agree more!
If you’re dealing with loss right now and everything’s looking pretty grim, put this track on - turn it up loud, and sing your heart out - knowing that Morgan, me and countless others who have traveled the same road are out here - cheering you on!
You can learn more about Morgan St. Jean here:
About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
After my dad died I was very sad - I couldn't play for a while and when I did, the music that came out reflected my grieving state. I wrote an album of solo piano music called Music to Grieve to - from which the idea of the Music to community originated.
If you'd like to know more you should read Nicole's fabulous article on why listening to sad music can make you feel better.
25 September 2021
Why write a song reflecting on the suicide of a beloved friend? Why send it out into the world? What purpose does that serve? Ever since Gerhardt reached out and sent me this beautiful track, I’ve been reflecting on those questions – and while I don’t have an answer, I have an idea of one…
13 April 2021
I was feeling sad – and I know why, but damn it’s so hard at times.
I’ve sat and watched as circumstance came in and deconstructed my defences one by one – constant pain leading to lack of sleep to lack of writing to lack of self care to lack of confidence to lack of hope to – STOP!
31 March 2021
There’s this idea in life that just because you know a thing it makes it easier to deal with.
Like sitting down with a therapist, driving through your history until you find the behavior that causes you, many years later, to run away from connection or drink too much or insist on cleaning everything 3 times.