This song brings out a deep sadness from one of the most depressive times of my life, makes me want to cry my eyes out for three days in a row. But it's a beautiful, beautiful song and fits perfectly with the tone of last week's track, so I've decided to revive those old wounds for the sake of this cherished, most beloved playlist.
I've been told I gotta let go of the past, which is a difficult and tremendous task for me, I have been working on it, haven't been completely stuck on thinking about every little thing that went wrong like my father did, but haven't completely let go, physically. You feel it and realize that sometimes you're so afraid of turning the page, throwing every little insignificant object that brings back random memories, throwing away all of those things that no longer serve a purpose in your life, or even some that never did. I confess I have been a hoarder, less and less over the years as I've gotten less and less stuff, but with a certain difficulty to just throw a bunch of stuff in the garbage, I've been summoning strength to finally get on with it and I know I'll eventually will, so I try to stay patient and compassionate with myself about it.
You can certainly throw away objects, but what about memories? What about people? People you've cared so much about and still do even if they're completely absent from your life? How do you balance and accept the past and their absence and also continue to love them? I guess acceptance plays a big role, and I have worked on that too, memories pop up and I continue to observe them and try to stay at peace with the situation, past and present, I'm not sure if I'll ever have to completely forget people to be able to move on, I certainly hope not.
It's ok to feel sadness, eventually one can give it space and time to let go, it's ok to let go too, realize you're at peace with everything that happened and continue to embrace the present.
I have discovered my thoughts aren't as constructive as I wish they would be, I'm trying to change that.
I seriously recommend you to listen to this song's version on later with Jools Holland, it's too beautiful to be true.
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About the Curator - Henry Gonzalez
Musician from Colombia, constantly inspired and moved by music and trying to express it in the best way posible, trying to find common souls who get as transformed by music and sound as he does.
Music can be a spiritual experience, you just have to find the right one.