It's been a long time since I've done a lot of things. It's interesting to see life as a series of past events and then finally accepting it as the here and now.
Sometimes we cling to the past, I've noticed that tendency in my family. I have managed to overcome that quite a lot with all my inner work, but it's still interesting to see life in retrospective and acknowledge all the changes.
We're living a extreme and strange situation, something no one would have imagined a year ago, it's still a bit incredible to see how everything has changed in a manner of months, I feel in a sense of expectation and always maintaining my patience, trying to understand that there's a lot of time ahead of us and it's important not to act hasty and impatient and risk not having that time at all.
Still it's strange to realize all we're living through, I feel I've changed a lot in these past few months, life before the pandemic seems like a strange dream. I sometimes have strange dreams.
It's a little sad to notice how greatly my relationship with music has changed, I used to madly love music and listen to it all day everyday, I used to share it with a whole little world of people surrounding me, I used to enjoy making them vibrate by listening to what I was playing on my speakers, it was wonderful to feel a small bond getting built over a song, over a memory, over a feeling.
Nowadays it's more difficult for me, I don't have that much time or inclination to listen to music purely out of passion, my speakers stopped working and I stopped listening to and finding music which made me vibrate that way, I stopped sharing that and stopped listening and being surrounded by people.
There's only a few moments of the year when I have deeply felt that passion and enjoyed listening for long periods of time, the rest of the time I have only had music around me because of a sense of duty towards it, and the feeling is very different.
So when thinking of adding new music to this playlist it's been a bit difficult, nothing has really come to mind, most of the recent tracks have been submitted, and I've loved them, but when it's time to think of something on my own little music has come to mind.
I came to this song, another one from my past, I keep repeating that I'm gonna run out of them. I don't want to repeat artists that much but I don't know that many of them who can really fit the sound of this playlist and actually spark something in my heart so I can write here.
I guess it's also exhausting and we have lived in very exhausting times. I have managed to juggle this year an incredible amount of effort and energy in many different conjunct activities and I still have no idea how I managed to both do it all and not get destroyed in the process, I still don't know how.
So maybe it's just a matter of being compassionate and having a bit of patience, a little more patience, I know it's difficult sometimes, but I think if there's something I can handle, it's patience.
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About the Curator - Henry Gonzalez
Musician from Colombia, constantly inspired and moved by music and trying to express it in the best way posible, trying to find common souls who get as transformed by music and sound as he does.
Music can be a spiritual experience, you just have to find the right one.
