[Intro: V, Jung Kook]
Where is my angel?
The end of the day
Someone come and save me, please
A weary sigh of a tiring day
I guess everyone's happy
Can you look at me? 'Cause I am blue and grey
The meaning of the tears reflected in the mirror
My color hidden with a smile, blue and grey
[Verse 1: SUGA]
I don't know where it went wrong
Since my youth, I've had a blue question mark in my head
Maybе that's why I've been living so fiercely
But whеn I look back, I'm all by myself
That hazy shadow that swallows me up
The blue question mark still exists
Is it anxiety or depression?
How am I so regretful?
Or is it just me, one that loneliness gave birth to
I still don't know, the ferocious blue
I hope I don't erode away, I'll find the exit
[Chorus: Jin, Jung Kook, Jimin, V]
I just wanna be happier
To melt the cold me
My hands have reached out countless times
Colorless echo
Oh, this ground feels so heavier
I am singing by myself
I just wanna be happier
Am I being too greedy?
[Post-Chorus: Jungkook & Jin, Jimin & V]
I felt when I walked on the cold winter streets
The sound of my fast heartbeat breathing
I still feel it
Don't say it's okay
'Cause it's not okay
Please don't leave me alone, it hurts too much
[Verse 2: j-hope, RM]
On the road I always walk
There is a light that always shines
But today, the scene feels unfamiliar
Is it dull or is it broken?
This lump of metal feels heavy
A grey rhino is approaching
I'm just standing there without focus
I don't feel like myself at this moment
I'm just not scared
I don't believe in a God called conviction
Words like color make me cringe
A vast grey area is way more comfortable
Hundreds of millions of grey facial expressions here
When it rains, it's my world
I dance over this city
On a clear day, bring some fog
On rainy days, we're always together
A toast to all the dust here
[Chorus: Jung Kook, Jimin, V, Jin]
I just wanna be happier
Please feel the warmth of my hands
They're not warm, so I need you more
Oh, this ground feels so heavier
I am singing by myself
In the distant future, when I smile
I'll tell you I did
[Outro: V]
After secretly picking up the words in the air
Now I fall asleep at dawn, good night
——Translation by Genius
Forgive me for putting the lyrics of the whole song, since each sentence pokes my heart deeply! Wandering between instruments and human voices, between singing and rap, between melody and lyrics, between disappearance and reappearance, my thoughts have also become blue and gray, uneasy and melancholic. While the song is over, the feeling of lost and endless aftertaste comes into mind.
Blue, as the coldest color among the cool colors, is pure and thorough, representing sky and ocean, depth and width, universe and eternity. "The blue question mark" and "the ferocious blue" directly mention this color, which brings unpredictable depth and unstoppable power, starting from youth, starting from fiercely life, and starting from the discovery of loneliness after looking back. This is blue, carrying anxiety or depression, corroded the direction of advancement and blurred the escape exit.
Gray, between black and white, negotiate all the distances between black and white. It is dark or light, light or dark, cold or warm. It has no greed of white that absorbs all the colors in the spectrum; it has no glare of white causing harm to others; it has no boring of white, the longer you pay attention to gray, the more you understand its value. Even though we live in "a vast grey area", despite hundreds of millions of us wearing "grey facial expressions" masks, we will still dance for the rain and toast for the dust in the cold and depressing city.
Compared with black, gray is more concealed, introverted, hazy, and low-profile. It smoothes the edges of black, weakens the hardness of black, and reveals its unique potential power. Although "this ground feels so heavier", I will still "sing by myself". In the distant future, I will tell you I did it with a smile.
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About the Curator: Chenying Sun
Hi, my name is Chenying Sun, you can also call me Lucky like my friends. I was born and grew up in Chongqing, a megacity in China, and inherited the typical straightforward, enthusiastic, and uprighting character here. If you want to discuss any aspect of music with me, I will have dialogues with you very enthusiastically.
I have a long history of interest and learning experience in music performance and creation. Thanks to my professional training in traditional Chinese music instruments Guzheng and Guqin since 4 years old, I have a deep research on traditional Chinese music. Besides, I'm proficient in performing various musical instruments such as piano, guitar, ukulele, and harmonica. The extensive enthusiasm for music also inspired me to create musical works as a singer-songwriter.
In short, I have a diverse passion for both classical and contemporary music genres including pop, K-pop, R&B, Hip-hop, etc. Among them, the one that resonates most with my soul is K-pop, which is the primary factor that prompts me to be the first curator of the K-pop playlist at Musicto. I entered the K-pop community because of Wanna One. Although the group has disbanded now, I still remember their songs and their shining performance on stage, and crazy about everything about K-pop. I extremely desire to share all the K-pop songs soothed my life with massive K-pop fans, hence I became the playlist curator of "Music to Soothe K-pop."
Looking forward to chatting with K-pop families. Also, please feel free to have talks with me about various music genres, contact me on Instagram!