After my son’s calm birth, things pretty quickly changed – normal right? It felt a bit like I was in another dimension. How the hell could I be 36 years old and not know anything about babies??? I know! I’ll google it!!
Bad idea….turns out searching my own anxieties quickly provided other new mums anxieties feeding my bad wolf brain, I had become tired and tense and was for a long time. How could I get my little man to relax and go to sleep if I was wired?? I sent out a wish in my head to any god of light or dark, any force with any influence within the infinite and beyond “Please help him relax and go to sleep” I held him close and closed my eyes, humming the theme to outlander I tried telepathic communication, maybe if I imagine something calming he will feel me relax, maybe he can see my thoughts and the images in my head, maybe he will go to sleep…..I keep humming and start to rock side to side with my eyes closed, stars pop into my mind. I imagine the nights sky, I am a star, and so is he, we are together, this is all we are, we twinkle just a little. We are infinite, we have been together forever, we will always be together, I love you my darling.
He is asleep.
“Did you get it Mama?”
Ask for Help and relax!
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About the Curator: Erin Murray
Erin, a Mother of 1 little man and wife to 1 big man has learnt much about herself in the past few years. After moving from the city to the bush (near the Ocean), there weren’t as many distractions as she had become accustomed to, in a smaller community she lost her anonymity and slowly began to become aware of herself, her feelings, the life she had created for herself and her relationships with others. Seeking change from the feelings and behaviors which had become her normal, she sought out methods to do just that. Slowly at first, then a bit more and a bit more she is becoming aware of what she actually wants for herself and has begun removing the things that aren’t that, inside and out. Learning about faith (not religionJ), fun and how to be gentle with herself and others along the way.