What today’s insight has granted me is the knowledge that if you don’t check in on yourself, you’ll lose touch with yourself. You’ll become unfamiliar with each other, and it feels very strange. I honestly think this is what it means to feel out of sorts.
We don’t like feeling like we can just force ourselves to adopt values. For me to want to be compassionate, to want to manifest in a particular way, a way that is kind and free of judgement or bitterness, is not what feeds the ego.
We’re there for every day of our lives, but they all smudge into this one long trail of ideas and feelings and memories, and we just have this general sense of ‘being’ somewhere in the middle of it all.
I’ve been on mirtazapine for a couple of months now, and it’s been interesting.
My battle with sleep is a tale as old as time. If I want to fall asleep, I’m chronically awake. If I want to wake up, I’m an immovable, eternal entity.
Pay attention to your body to avoid zoning out.
Be mindful of fighting back the bad dreams for they can ruin several hours of your life.
I’ve been living here for a while – it’s super comforting to me – big, open, full of space and yet, warm and comfortable – almost like going back to the womb.