It's the last song of the year, the last song we'll add to the playlist in 2018, and quite a special one.
It's a perfect moment to reflect on endings, today of all days, tonight of all nights, because for some reason endings have resonated strongly with me today, to the point of bringing tears to my eyes without an apparent reason.
Goodbyes affect me emotionally, deeply. Endings, on days like these, make me feel a giant weight on my chest, like the grief of a thousand goodbyes, like the heaviness of the great lament we sometimes have when we're forced to realize no happy moment will repeat itself ever again.
It's probably because I've had the most painful goodbyes of my entire life this year, it's probably because I miss my father so much and I have been seeing reflections of his memory a lot on these past few days, it's probably because I miss my dog so much and his memory has also appeared so many times in front of me. It could also be because I have experienced this feeling, so many times, throughout time and lifetimes and it never ceases to hurt, it never ceases to have an impact.
Sometimes I wonder how people manage not to get affected by endings and goodbyes, at least not as affected as me. Then I've realized many people never actually get over them, many people just pretend they've moved on or that it didn't matter, I have also failed to express the impact some goodbyes have produced on me; maybe other people have thought it didn't matter to me.
I've also noticed the present is essential to healing these pains and when I've been less in the present it has been more painful, I've realized the body sometimes fails to connect to the mind as it should and you lose track of time and space, start thinking a lot more about the past and future and less about the present, which leads to bigger pain when faced with change, something people who are more connected to their bodies and the present don't experience that strongly.
But disconnection with the body and the present is a big problem in this age of remote connections and enormous flow of information, so it becomes a general condition to suffer more from this kind of situations, to the point when it becomes the average condition, something that shouldn't be in our nature at all.
So tonight we should make a pledge to try and connect to ourselves, our bodies and the earth a lot more, remember that life is short and we can only live it in the present, remember to cherish people and the moments we have along them, we never know when our next goodbye will happen and we should greet it with the less amount of regret possible, so, let's live in the present.
Let's promise ourselves tonight to constantly remember we only exist fully in the present and let go of the rest.
Goodnight, Travel Well.
Happy Holidays and best wishes for the new year.
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About the Curator - Henry Gonzalez
Musician from Colombia, constantly inspired and moved by music and trying to express it in the best way posible, trying to find common souls who get as transformed by music and sound as he does.
Music can be a spiritual experience, you just have to find the right one.