So many layers to this song. I have been the rifle, and I have been the bird. I know now, that I am both at the same time. If I choose to be content with, looking at the big wide open sky through a window, and no more, knowing I am not happy, I have chosen to be my own rifle.
The first line takes me back to childhood. My Mother didn’t know that she was the bird and the rifle at the same time. Maybe, she believed she was the bird, but a bird can’t live in a cage forever, so she found a way to leave. By then she had dropped her wings, and forgotten how to fly. So instead, she floated away.
My Father was the bird and the rifle too, his feathers lost to him in another way, he flew away in his head. Still here, I have faith that he looks out, at that big wide open sky, often.
With a steel focus, I am determined not to float away, or just look out the window. I am learning to find another way. I believe I have, or, at least I am changing, now more myself than ever.
The more I force myself to see my rifle and my bird, and to walk another path. The less and less I see the rifle around me.
As I heal myself, all I see, are birds.
Find out what makes you happy, so you can see birds too.
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About the Curator: Erin Murray
Erin, a Mother of 1 little man and wife to 1 big man has learnt much about herself in the past few years. After moving from the city to the bush (near the Ocean), there weren’t as many distractions as she had become accustomed to, in a smaller community she lost her anonymity and slowly began to become aware of herself, her feelings, the life she had created for herself and her relationships with others. Seeking change from the feelings and behaviors which had become her normal, she sought out methods to do just that. Slowly at first, then a bit more and a bit more she is becoming aware of what she actually wants for herself and has begun removing the things that aren’t that, inside and out. Learning about faith (not religionJ), fun and how to be gentle with herself and others along the way.