She can hear the tiny voice now, it has always been there talking, telling her. Stirring until awake, the eyes of the tiny voice are open, she is ready to roar. Her time spent with a candle in the dark to find that voice in the distance has paid off, she can hear her, she is her. I have waited hours for this, I’ve made myself so sick….. It is ironic that we surely know ourselves the most, but when feeling fragmented, I know I don’t always feel….Close to me.
When we feel tension in our body, it may be a way to signal to us that our actions and feelings are incongruent. This word so perfectly articulated by my friend, when used in this way. It is contrast, not in line with or just doesn’t fit together. The world we live in trains us unconsciously how to behave, building in conditioned responses, taking us further from our natural way. Not good, not bad, just is. Somewhere along the way it may become too hard to feel our feelings, and we begin to ignore them. When you have been responding to life in this way, and you want to find another way, it can be freeing and sometimes beautiful. It can also fill you with anguish and anxiety leading up to finding more of your natural way again, and then magic. Finding your way in the dark to another piece. Coming back to our own way, getting close to ourselves must also be, in the beginning a new kind of training and conditioning. Starting to see, for ourselves, from ourselves.
I wonder, if you ask your body where it holds tension now what does it say? Why is the tension there? Some people only make choices based on how they feel, their feelings are so important to them as they guide them the most accurately towards their dreams. They ask themselves a question and simply notice the feeling in their body, is it contracting, heavy, hiding and shriveling up? That is a no. Or, does it feel expansive, light and easy. You guessed it, that is a YES!!!!
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About the Curator: Erin Murray
Erin, a Mother of 1 little man and wife to 1 big man has learnt much about herself in the past few years. After moving from the city to the bush (near the Ocean), there weren’t as many distractions as she had become accustomed to, in a smaller community she lost her anonymity and slowly began to become aware of herself, her feelings, the life she had created for herself and her relationships with others. Seeking change from the feelings and behaviors which had become her normal, she sought out methods to do just that. Slowly at first, then a bit more and a bit more she is becoming aware of what she actually wants for herself and has begun removing the things that aren’t that, inside and out. Learning about faith (not religionJ), fun and how to be gentle with herself and others along the way.