I’m Not Whole.
Ain’t that the truth - particularly for people listening to this list. Grief just takes a chunk out of you and it’s fifty / fifty whether it gets replaced - and even if it is - it’s with something completely different.
It was the hook that got me into the song - oh and well the fact that I’m a huge Frightened Rabbit fan and if you dig their music you’re probably going to love this track. Scott’s death earlier this year was a tough one - I’d seen the band many times and he seemed such a wonderful if broken person - we featured Death Dreams on the playlist back in May - it was a very personal write up.
But life goes on - or it does for those of us who don’t succumb - and what do we do when we’re not right - when we’re not whole? Sometimes it’s enough to know that there are others out there who feel just like you do - where tracks like this can create the connection and you realize you’re not alone - and yet - other times it doesn’t help - the song becomes a stark reminder of where you are and how fucked everything is.
Even though I’m Scottish - the words can be a bit difficult to decipher so I asked the band for the lyric sheet - it’s brilliant! ;-) ‘cos on reading - I don’t really have a clue what the song’s about! I’ll paste them below but here’s the thing - songs don’t have to make sense in order to “do their job” - the most popular tracks often have the most opaque lyric as in doing so they can resonate with a wider audience - it’s the difference between watching a movie and reading a book - with a book you get to create the environment - if a lyric’s opaque - you get to decide its meaning.
For me - this track - with its brilliant guitar work and soaring melody and vocal harmonies - reminds me that I’m human - that shit’s going to happen - that I’m not always going to get what I want - but that - even though I’m not “right” - I’m going to be OK, and that’s why it makes the list.
Oh - and if you’re in Scotland this weekend - December 8th - check out Sleep In The Park - A nationwide sleep out to end homelessness in Scotland for good. If you’re in Glasgow Frightened Rabbit will be performing their first gig since Scott’s death with many different guest performers taking the lead vocal - I wish I could be there ;-)
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About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey
The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.
After my dad died I was very sad - I couldn't play for a while and when I did, the music that came out reflected my grieving state. I wrote an album of solo piano music called Music to Grieve to - from which the idea of the Music to community originated.
If you'd like to know more you should read Nicole's fabulous article on why listening to sad music can make you feel better.