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Break Ups - perhaps the "safest" form of grief there is - no-one actually dies or is maimed but yet - when you're going through them - safe isn't exactly the word that comes to mind.

What I like about this track is how we've all been there - how when you think you're out the other side you start to speak to your ex again and - in many cases get back together, but here - James deftly steers us away and puts an additional melancholy spin on the whole process.

But what I love about this track is the vocal melody - that lift into the chorus - it's the hook that grabs me and brings me back.  If you're going through a break up, you might not be ready for this one yet - but hey - as the science tells us - listening to tracks like this actually make you feel good!

Here's James in his own words:

It’s a song that comes from a wholly personal place, and I feel as though I would be disingenuous in not divulging the meaning behind the track. I was in a relationship with someone, and just as every good sad song goes, we fell apart. It was a toxic, mean, and truly horrible breakup, with a lot of name-calling, one-upping, and generally feeling like awful people. The dust settled, and about six months later, I (stupidly) decided to meet up with him again. We wanted to reconnect. We’d be chatting again via text, and to me it just felt right.

When we met back up, it was like our souls had shifted. I couldn’t see in him what I felt attracted to in the first place. His laugh sounded different, the colour of his hair seemed off. Was that tattoo there before? It just didn’t feel right; he seemed older, more tired, more weathered. But he swore that everything was good, that everything was going well. I couldn’t, and still can’t, pinpoint what was different, but there was something that made me realise I’d fallen out of love.

It’s been eighteen months since then, but there are occasions where I still think about some of the times we shared. It was nice. Was it worth the fallout, the self-loathing & the soul-searching? Definitely not. But hey, at least I got this song out of it.
— James Walker

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About the Curator - Andrew McCluskey

The first visual memory I have is that of the white upright piano in Singapore, Hell and the dark forces lived at the bottom, Heaven and the Angels at the top. They would play battles through my fingers and I was hooked.

Although I've always played, I haven't always been a musician.  Most of my twenties were spent working with people, buying and selling and learning how the world works.  It was in my thirties that I came to America and focused on music and began to develop music2work2.

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