I can’t sleep. The cosmic fires of The Chaos burn through my dreams, even after all this time.
I’m exhausted, but my mind isn’t. There just seems like so much more to process, but I don’t know where or how to begin.
And so I get up, leave my room, head out onto the rooftops. I’ve done this a lot lately. A Nightwalk to calm my troubled soul. But tonight, there’s something different. There’s a palpable difference in the air. It sounds strange to say this, but it feels like … magic.
I realise I’ve been heading upwards, but don’t remember climbing any stairs. The sky feels closer somehow, and when I look at my feet I see I’ve been walking a staircase made of cosmos, clouds swirling just above my head.
And then I pass through the cloud wall. I expect to see the heavens open up before me, or a great celestial city, but instead all I find is a quiet place. It’s cluttered, and warm, filled with books and artefacts. But mostly, it feels calm here. Truly calm, like all the noise of the world can’t reach me here, and I feel a sense of peace I haven’t felt in a long time. A truly long time.
I’ve found an escape, a place where the dreams can’t haunt me. And so I grab a book, and I make myself comfortable. I have a feeling I’m going to be here for a while.
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About the curator - Matt Jenko
Hi my name is Matt, but my friends call me Matt. I’m on the wrong side of 29 (damn I hate it every time I have to update that number), definitely feeling my age, but never felt happier and more content than I do at this point in my life. I’ve been through some rocky patches (who hasn’t) and lived to tell the tale, and boy do I gots some stories.
When I’m not giving opinions absolutely nobody asked for, I’m doing a worldbuilding with my passion project, vivaellipsis. If you like offbeat nonsense delivered through immersive escapism, then go and get involved. Or don’t, I’m not telling you what to do. I’m not yer boss.
I’m a simple man with simple interests. I like Yorkshire tea, the sound of rain on the window, and a bloody good story.
9 August 2021
What today’s insight has granted me is the knowledge that if you don’t check in on yourself, you’ll lose touch with yourself. You’ll become unfamiliar with each other, and it feels very strange. I honestly think this is what it means to feel out of sorts.
27 May 2021
The cinematic score to your psychological journey with Matt Jenko. Featuring artists like: Bonobo • Yotto • Emancipator • CamelPhat • ODESZA • Carpenter Brut • Tinlicker • Four Tet • Jacques Greene • Tchami • RÜFÜS DU SOL