There’s so much going on right that it’s hard to find a moment to stop and catch a thought. I don’t really want to write something half-arsed (because who does), but at the same time I want to make sure I write something every day to be able to look back at the snapshots and be reminded of the flavour of the feeling.
It’s always been interesting to me that days blend together so much that it’s only a rare few among us who can say ‘ah yes, Tuesday 22nd September 2016? I remember it well my child; I went to the post office and on the way back I bought meself a nice pasty. It were raining as I recall. It’s the day I realised I had to replace me shoelaces because one had snapped.’
We’re there for every day of our lives, but they all smudge into this one long trail of ideas and feelings and memories, and we just have this general sense of ‘being’ somewhere in the middle of it all.
Like how you can start worrying about something, then forget the thing, but keep the worry. We have this pervading sense of experience that continues in spite of events and situations bouncing off us like water off a ship’s hull. I don’t think I’m profound in saying that a lot of the anxiety we experience is just build-up upon build-up of unresolved situations, often innocuous in isolation, but like plaque build-up on yer choppers becomes a problem over time. We brush our teeth; let’s also scrub our minds.
Reflexive thinking, meta-cognition, mindfulness, whatever you want. Just keep track of the things you’re picking up along the way, and when it feels like it’s getting heavy just stop. Have a look at what you’ve got. See if there’s anything you could put down. You probably don’t need the wardrobe from when you were 7, I don’t want to hear otherwise.
Have a bloody lovely day.
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About the curator - Matt Jenko
Hi my name is Matt, but my friends call me Matt. I’m on the wrong side of 29 (damn I hate it every time I have to update that number), definitely feeling my age, but never felt happier and more content than I do at this point in my life. I’ve been through some rocky patches (who hasn’t) and lived to tell the tale, and boy do I gots some stories.
When I’m not giving opinions absolutely nobody asked for, I’m doing a worldbuilding with my passion project, vivaellipsis. If you like offbeat nonsense delivered through immersive escapism, then go and get involved. Or don’t, I’m not telling you what to do. I’m not yer boss.
I’m a simple man with simple interests. I like Yorkshire tea, the sound of rain on the window, and a bloody good story.
9 August 2021
What today’s insight has granted me is the knowledge that if you don’t check in on yourself, you’ll lose touch with yourself. You’ll become unfamiliar with each other, and it feels very strange. I honestly think this is what it means to feel out of sorts.
27 May 2021
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